for so many days, i've been trying my damnest to stay calm. to stop myself from saying anything.. But that was the last straw!.. i hate you!! i hate you!!..i never wanted to be here in the first place.. you asked us to stay!.. you asked us to stay damn you!.. you took away the person i trust the most.. you took away my family... you took away my chances for a better life!!... i hate you... i hate you... damn you.. just go to hell.. you have no right... you simply have no right.. you don't own me!.. you have now right to shout at my face...bullshit! bullshit! bullshit!
you know what i had to sacrifice for this hellhole! bullshit! bullshit!... you simply have no right.. you simply have no right.. bullshit...bullshit!

zip it...

you think it's easy? waking up everyday and be confronted with the reality that we can never be.. that what we had, although special, was something fleeting... that even though i spend a lifetime bargaining with GOD, you can never be mine... i knew it from the start... i'm just not good enough and you're too good to be true... sometimes, that's just how life works...