i cant even begin to describe how.. how... how it feels..
i want to stay... i once swore to myself that i will stay...
but it's so hard to force myself on something that doesn't want me anymore...
it doesn't feel right anymore...
should i go or should i leave
please tell me..
it's hard and it hurts so bad...
i want to stay... i swear i want to stay...
but i feel that it's over now..
right?

sure...
you can go..
i wont beg for you to stay...
it doesn't really matter...
i lost you long before you told me you're leaving...
no biggie...
i'm used to this...